Nothing deliberate or malicious in my actions

She said she would wait

Still I wish I could have that moment back

Just like a thousand others

I say that far too often

Honorable intentions no longer accepted

I saw it unfold in slow motion

Immediately knew the consequences

That River of Ugliness flowed mercilessly

An often painful reminder of my imbecilic actions

Far too common

A walking tree of daily incompetence

The Wound was very real

It stung, throbbed, then burned.

Mercilessly

That easy access dark box emerged and announced the verdict

Own it

Assume the position

Don’t you dare hide in this self proclaimed darkness

Its not about You

Victimization verboten

I apologized

Numerous times

I was truly sorry

Reviewed the sequence repeatedly in my mind

Uncontrollable but silent self loathing

She scoffed at my sorrowful tone

I apologized again

Say it more she implored

I know the drawer.

Intimately

Inside there is much to choose

All extremely capable

But how capable was I

Was the time this time or again next time

Undoubtedly there would be more

So many before as the song remains the same

He told me how to cope

Thoughtful dissection

Intentions and motivations

Appropriate response

I know the drawer

The Angel whispers too soon

Herbies angel

More incompetence

Inherited inadequacies and insufficiencies

Cycle of life and patterns

Say it more