I messed up today
And don’t know how or why
But she let me have it
And she was right to be angry
And sad
And disappointed
But it was also an important day.
For me
And for the princess

More her for sure
And I just threw a wrench
Unintentionally but the damage was done
Really wanted

Pay my penance

He had suggestions
I listened
And digested
The options could be fatal
But demanded more review

Timing wasn’t the best

Too many open doors in need of address
He could be convincing though
It wouldn’t matter anyway
Regardless
That was true

That ultimate truth
If sufficiently selfish
Pain was a constant reminder.
Not new
So many visitations
More now than before
Or maybe not paying attention

Altered consciousness offered up
Only so much relief
Limits
Dissipation
Then what
Reconciliation or take the stand
Tough decision for me
Really

Still lost

Its relentless.
Harness the dark

Transform

Great sound bite
Utter bullshit

Sinking

Down